so, yeah-i am not dead, and i am not missing. i don't know if anyone i know really hangs on the deviant art site anymore, but i thought i would throw out a little update because i miss you all. i am home in wisconsin for the summer and it has proven to be quite the experience. it's been a long time since i've tried to live at home and it's almost as if i'm reversing in life a bit in order to go forward. i just work.....all the time. one job is pretty sweet-i rent out canoes and kayaks and even get to guide trips, etc. the other job is a bit less fulfilling; i fill slot machines at a casino and get sad watching all the elderly people slam the machines day and night, just waiting for their time to strike it rich. sad. anyway, i hope to get some more submissions in here soon. here at home i actually have the technology and assistance to get paper into file form. my poetry i fear has been a bit lean these last few months. i started spending a lot of time in the mountains and it seems like it canceled out my need to pinch out some beauty with words. instead i just experienced it in a different way. i can't even describe what the mountains do to me. cheesy and cliche, i know, but the more i grow up the more i realize that i actually AM cheesy and cliche-everything i've always run from. dang it. hmm....what else is a part of life these days? if anyone is interested in a good movie, see life aquatic. it's insane. that's about all i can even say about it without sounding as insane as the movie. all the music is david bowie played by not-david bowie. it's really neat. coolest new music i've heard lately-a group called iron and wine. it's so incredible. very mellow and expressive, but not overly emotional and it has the perfect balance of sound without sounding too acoustic or too tinny. wow. anyway, i fear my small little life has no more to present to anyone who may happen upon my fruitless ramblings... oh, one cool note---about a week ago i celebrated my one year sober birthday---it was kind of a bittersweet and reflective day, but full of a lot of gratitude. it humbled me a lot to finally get completely sober, because there really is not way to do it completely on your own... wow, not important. goodnight all